Monday, September 8, 2008
My husband & I went through a IVF cycle four years ago, I felt like I was the only person in the world who was going through this. At the time there was several people I worked with who were pregnant, so without trying, one other person who wanted to be pregnant but only wants a certain sex, which amazes me. Who are we to be selective. I would have loved to had a baby. When you get to that point, you don't care. You just want a baby. The reason I am writing this is so I can get some of this off my chest. When your around pregnant people they don't & won't even try to understand why you don't want their pregnancy rubbed in your face. They usually only think of themselves. One of closest friends from elem school is going through this very situation right now. Reading her blogs made me feel so much better, to know that your not the only one in the world who feels the way we do. So thanks to my friend, you know who you are. our IVF cycle did not work, health wise I couldn't do another cycle because the meds had mutated my ovary into a monster. I had a hysterectomy last june. I feel much better physically but my heart still hurts sometimes. Mainly because I will never feel a baby moving inside of me, or feel a baby kick. Some things are hard to deal with even 4 yrs later. We ended up adopting which was god's plan I guess to begin with. We love our child like nothing else. Well anyone who reads this, If it helps just one person, or makes one person feel a little better, that was my goal.